You Are A Poplar Tree

People tend to look up to you, and it's a bit lonely at the top. Inside, you are not always self confident, but you show great courage. Mature and organized, you are reliable in any situation. You tend to have an artistic or philosophical outlook on life. You are very choosy in love and take partnership seriously.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

The Weeping Willow

I'm completely captivated
by your sensual touch
by the way you look at me
by the way you kiss me
the way your tounge slow dances and lingers
on my tounge

I've waited all my life for you
I've almost lost hope, set to be miserable
lost in my agony, forever damned.

And so here you are like a fairytale dream....
Where were you all along?
Waiting playfully, knowingly in the shadows of my dreams?

Deep is my heart.
Deep is my love for you,
everlasting is my passion.
Fulfillment is yours to embrace.
These words are only meant for you,
it has been locked away, sacred in my soul.
You truely mean so much to me and you know who you are,
now come and find me.

Love Letter

Dear husband(A.K.A.)dickface,
Here we are going on 11 years together and I gotta tell ya that I'm more miserable now with you than I ever have been. It's because I'm older and I thought wiser but apparently not because I'm still with you. Do you remember when I left you back in September? I'm sure you do because you remind me of your pain on a daily basis. Well I kept a journal then and I wrote down everything at that time and today I was reading it and I swore then I would never go back to you. Someone would have to drag my dead corspe back to you or that's right, you took my daughters away so I had to come back. I thought maybe I could be real and make this work. I even married you to seal the deal or my fate for that matter. BUT here we are and everything is shit again. I have to beg you for cigarette money, I'm having to beg you for a $100 to get my license back, but you ain't budging are you? And during all of this, your being warned. I am sick and tired of you treating me like a child, controlling me, and forcing your will upon me. Those things right there have made my heart cold towards you and very few people understand this. Why do you have to be like this? Why do you have to make me hate you when all I want to do is love you? You won't let me love you. And through all of this, I have no regrets. (I understand that now Joy)because when I finally meet that man that breaks the foundation I stand on, then I can thank you for all the mistakes I won't make with him.
Love, your wife

What a bloody mess

I find myself overwhelmed this week due to enormous amounts of clutter that has accumlated over the last (I don't know) 100 years!! Where this shit comes from I have no idea, but I can tell you that I feel the ancient rage starting from my toes and slowly working it's way up through every cell of my body until I snap like a dry twig and I burn the fucking shoebox down!! Oh yes you heard me right. Hi my name is Cathy and I live in a trailer, well lets just say a single wide home that is trying to house 2 adults, 2 children(girls) and 8 fucking cats and I don't know how that shit happened I swear that last week I had 3 cats. Then all the sudden mama cat runs in my "home" with a kitten half hanging out of her "private kitty parts" and dashed directly under my bed. Several hours later, I am the proud keeper of 5 furry little cute black kittens. I had to move the little bastards yesterday because as far as extensive cleaning, that was a good place to start. I pull the bed out and dear God have mercy on me! How stupid am I? I mean really you have to have some common sense in this world and I displayed none when I let mama-cat dash in. It looks like a murder took place under my bed. Simply put someone was brutality murder under my bed and thus 5 kittens were born.

Briana, Kendell and Cayla

I want to write about my 3 daughters. Briana is 15 and she is all me! Her daddy died when she was 1 and she looks like him. She has my eyes though. I was 18 when I had her and scared to death! She was the cutest and sweetest baby in the whole world and she melted her daddy's heart. It was love at first sight for the both of us. Everything was going real good for us until we found out he had cancer, then our world crumbled. It was real tough that year taking care of a baby and your sick boyfriend. I don't know how Robbie did it. I don't think I would have been able to handle that. It's been 14 years since he died. Damn that's a long time! Sometimes it seems like a dream. I did all I could do at that time and if I had to do it over I would. I loved him and I always will. So I have to watch Briana grow trying to find glimpes of Robbie and it isn't hard. He is everywhere. Her features, her hair and even the way she walks. He has to be proud of her. She is a good kid and real street smart. You gotta have that in this mean and evil world. It's a major reality check with my girls. I am constantly humbled by them. I feel like I am so tuned in to them. Not only are they my flesh and blood, they are my best friends. Let me move on to child #2. Her name is Kendell and she is 9. She is beautiful and very spiritual. She's really the one who puts me in my place. We go head to head almost everyday over anything. I know that I'm toast when she gets to be 13. Bring it on!! My girls are going to have respect for themselves and others. I demand that shit because I get sick and tired of seeing spoiled, rotten kids who do nothing but get thier own way. You have to be on your toes in this world, I can't say it enough. Now onto child #3. Her name is Cayla and she is 6. Cayla is my baby bug. That child is all heart and soul. She is completely different from the other 2. She is quiet and still. She has beautiful features as well. She is the quiet one in her class. I am so proud of my girls. I hope they find the man of thier dreams and can experience that kind of earth shattering love. That is the best feeling in the whole world, nothing can touch that.

Blue Sky

I am the constant one because I am the change itself. Everything happens around me, and I watch things as they come and go. My body, mind are meant to work together. I change everything by not changing. I am the only safe place to hide when it rains.

I love my best friend

Okay the fairy picture is just plain creepy!! And I don't mean that in a bad way. My best friend and I have known each since we were 14. I am now 35. She helped me with this blog because I don't know shit about computers. All I know to do is write and maybe read your blog. The picture at the bottom of this page is in fact me and her. You would have to know us to understand. Joy if you are reading this, thank you for getting this started, it really means a lot to me.

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